I’m in the middle of a nightmare project.
It is a shop sample for a LYS. It is a pricey kit with luxury yarns and lovely colors. I’ve already handed it in once and now I’ve just frogged the last 1/3 of what I’ve knitted after frogging the entire thing several times.
A bit of history.
I looked the pattern over before casting on. First off, the recommended gauge is not right. It seems like they gave the gauge over 4″ as the gauge over one inch. I did the mental math, checked myself and carried on.
Second, I misinterpreted the pattern notes. I still think they are vague and not as helpful as they should be.
I finished and blocked to size, which is a small size for the price of the kit. I looked at this several times, scratched my head, and went on, it was blocked to the dimensions given. It was even an old school block as the pattern didn’t lend itself to blocking wires.
I got it finished, took it to the shop and even discussed with one of the ladies there that it didn’t come out how I expected. But we looked at the picture and it was close enough to be plausible.
Then I got a call from the shop. Other customers had made and/or seen the item in other shops and my version was wrong. It was significantly smaller and I had way too much yarn left over. I picked it up and promised to make it right.
Come to find out, my mental math was faulty so my gauge, which was a natural one, was way off from the guessed gauge. There was also figuring out what the vague pattern notes meant. I spent 3 days just casting on and ripping back until I figured it out.
Then came the curse. You know those projects that no matter what you do and how careful you think you are reading the pattern and counting your stitches, you just come out wrong.
I finally though I was on the back-end and ready to block tonight when I realized my final lace pattern, which is a standard and pretty easy pattern, was wrong, wrong for the entire section, and out it came.
I have at several points thought about “fudging” it and just making it work. Most other projects I probably would, and call it a “design choice”. But this item is a sample for a store. It is meant to say “This is what you will get if you do this project according to plan.”
And I’m getting paid for it.
I don’t know why my standard of perfection is higher when money is involved or why I feel I don’t deserve the extra time and focus when making something for myself. It occurs to me though, if I knit, spin, weave, do, everything, like I am getting paid for it to be an example of what can be done, my work will go from great to outstanding. And I should hold this standard even for things for myself that no one will ever see. Because I am worth that much. I shouldn’t sell myself short.